I have always considered myself a very strong man.  What is strength though?  I feel so weak lately, so very weak.  But what is weakness though?  I am exhausted, but I keep taking the steps putting one foot in front of the other, yet know not where I am going.  I have no goals when all of my life has been a goal to get somewhere.  I am not ruthless enough and have too big of a heart to just walk on people and not care about their feelings, yet I tell myself I am feelingless.  I want to explode, but I do not want to cause damage.  So many care about me, yet I feel so all alone.  I search each day for things to be thankful for, and thankfully I never hav e to look very far.  My life is an island right now, but I want to get off of it and conitnue to serve people, more specifically seniors and their families.  I want to do something, I am not sure what it is though.  My time of need and my cries will be answered, I am confident in that.

I have thought a lot this past year about friends.  I have had many I considered friends and possibly my meaning of friends is not what my "friends" meaning of friends is.  Does that make sense?  LOL  A friend is someone I tell the truth to, I do not lie to and do not feel the need to.  A friend is someone I care about, pray for, think about and wish the best for.  Though I consider my life very precious and valuable, I woul lay my life down easily for a friend.  A friend does not betray trust.  When a friend is falling you reach out to help them even if it may hurt.  A friend is like a brother except they have a choice to be a part of the family and the family that is created is unique.  I have lost a few friends and when I have it REALLY hurts me.  Friends are people that you do not have to look over your shoulder with nor think they would betray you.  Friends don't need to put on an act because they know you know them and they know you.  Friendship is more than words to me, how about you?

A lifetime begins with a breath a second of time.

Ever think about a second,

it is the difference between life and death.

Sixty seconds become a minute.

Sixty of those then become an hour,

and twenty four hours or 1440 minutes become a day.

Three hundred sixty five days become a year and occasionally 366.

A lot of these, or maybe even a little become-

A lifetime!

 

Life is precious, don't waste it...

I am about to enter the court system to defend my reputation against a woman who has been taken advantage of and deceived by a bunch of over testosteroned sales reps I had fired and a greedy insurance broker who wants to get at a database I built of over 18000 senior citizens to market them with insurnace products.  History of this case is building in past blogs.  When I say I am about to enter the court system, the quote from my attorney is that this is a marathon and not a sprint.  Can you say "caching caching?"  So now we are about to file a motion, I cannot say what type as it has been rumored that one of the decivers actually is reading my blog.  Anyways, this motion and the timing of its filing has nothing to do with my integrity, honesty and business accumen while I led this now dysfunct corp we are in this battle about.  It is merely a part of a legal game.  I say timing because we want to leave them as little time to answer as possible.  Yes, folks I have entered the legal game arena and legal fees have now approached $60,000 and I am yet to see the light of a court room.  Can you say burned out on all of this?  Well, I am.  But should this wicked woman (I only say this, because I now believe she feels and knows the truth but is continuing on in greed)  prevail, it would affect all of my professional licensing and my life.  I have no choice but to go the distance.  I have spent my life helping families, primarily seniors and now the gates of hell have opened in attempt to consume me.  I have been hurt severely and weakened, but the amazing thing is I feel my strength building again...  I am getting stronger and stronger and some time here in the future we will make it to depositions, and it isin these that my enemy will be defeated as there is so much documentation that I have.  Today my prayers are for people like myself, innocnet people who have been betrayed by friends and the pain that accompanies that.  I ask for blessing and insight into loving the ones you trully find our your friends and support people.  I am thankful for those in my life and do not understand the others and do not want to.    

Ever read your insurance policy on your homeowners insurance if you have it?  I used to say to people time and time again, "The reason the policy is so thick is not to protect the consumer, but to protect the insurance company."  Well, now it is in your face Mike and hear ya go!  I did not read my policy either.  Not that I felt I needed to, have owned houses for 25 years and never had a claim...  Well recently California is experiencing some heavier than normal rains (yes it actually does rain in California, we are all finding out).  The rains built up in our back yard and "seeped" into our dining room.  It is not like the earth has stopped spinning, but there is damage and we thought our homeowners would cover it.... THINK AGAIN.  Those folks over at Allstate, who sell us friendly commercials on TV how they want to be our friends and help out, well they have an exclusion if water "seeps" in rather than falls in!  If it falls in, it is covered, if it floods in, it is not.  My agent even went so far as to say that even ad we had flood insurance  (which why would we have that as we live on a hill) unless the immediate two neighbors suffered the same damage or there was more than two acres flooded, even the flood insurance would cover it.  Folks, I am now reading my policies...  Deceptive business practices once again, in my opinion.